Weekly Watercolor Project - Week #2 January 7, 2018 16:16

We All Rust

Well I made it to week 2.  I have been doing a lot of thinking this week about aging.  I'm not worried about balding (obviously), grey hairs, wrinkles, or much of that exterior stuff.  I do however worry about how getting older makes me feel.  And lately it's making me feel like shit.  I have a good sizable amount of health issues.  And man, as I get older they feel harder and harder to overcome.  And I'm not even that old.  I can't even imagine what it was like for my grandparents who seemed to always be in pain or walk funny.  They hid it as best they could.  I'm not as good at hiding it.  Although people assume I am doing ok most of the time as long as I show up and do stuff.  So maybe I can fake it pretty well too.  Anyway.  I am not sure what to do about it all.  It seems like the solutions I find are either bullshit or some sort of system you have to buy into.  And I wonder if trying is even something I can do.  Or want to.

Sorry if it seems a little sad but this is the truth that has found me this week.  I am tired of feeling like shit but I feel too shitty to seem to be able to do much about it.  We all rust...eventually.